CASTLE IN THE WOODS (TRIGGER WARNING)

 
Original post with song link (piano solo, first version):
 
As usual, when Mish was here, I have to write a song. Not related to things that happened or anything else, just because this orange demon sparks inspiration wherever she goes. Love you Mish! MWAH! (and if you don´t support birdeatsbaby yet, GO DO IT, their stuff is amazing!)
The song! As announced, it´s about the companions of mentally unstable persons. I´ve been on both sides of this. It´s dangerous. For both. And there´s quite some songs about mental illness but not so many about the other side (if you know some, please post them in the comments!). So, even if the “I” in this song speaks from the ill person`s perspective, I want you to see both of them, and listen to the warning.
When I say dangerous, I mean, mentally ill people are humans. They, we, love, and care. We only can´t show it all the time, and act accordingly. Sometimes our fucked up brain just takes over. And loving someone who cares is dangerous for both. Because mental illness can be contagious, or intoxicating. And seeing that we intoxicate the person who we love, and who is closest to us, just BECAUSE of that, makes us feel even more terrible. 
My count of friends who tried to commit suicide in 2018 is up to 5 now.
I hope it stops here. And I hope all their close ones have been strong enough to keep out of the maelstrom. Which is next to impossible, I know, if you care. That´s why I wrote this.
Stay strong. Stay bright, in the darkest hours of the year. Spring will come. Happy holidays, whatever you celebrate, and if it is you yourself.
 
 
 
Wie immer, nachdem Mish hier war, mußte ich einen Song schreiben. Das hat gar nichts zu tun mit Geschehnissen oder Gesprächen, es passiert einfach, weil dieses orange Teufelchen Insprationsfunken schleudert, wo immer sie ist. Love you Mish! MWAH! (und falls Ihr birdeatsbaby noch nicht unterstützt, MACHT ES, ihr Zeug ist umwerfend!)
Der Song! Wie angekündigt, geht es um die Gefährten mental instabiler Menschen. Ich kenne beide Seiten. Es ist gefährlich. Für beide. Und es gibt ziemlich viele Songs über seelische Erkrankungen, aber wenige über die andere Seite (wenn Ihr welche kennt, postet sie bitte im Kommentar!). Also bitte ich Euch, auch wenn das “ICH” in diesem Song die Perspektive der kranken Person verkörpert, beide zu sehen und auf die Warnung zu hören.
Wenn ich sage, es ist gefährlich, meine ich damit, daß geistig instabile Menschen genau das sind, MENSCHEN. Sie, wir, lieben, und sorgen uns. Wir können es nur nicht immer zeigen und danach handeln. Manchmal übernimmt einfach unser abgefucktes Hirn. Und jemanden zu lieben, der oder die sich sorgt, ist gefährlich für beide. Denn seelische Krankheiten können anstecken, oder vergiften. Und zu sehen, wie man selbst die Person vergiftet, die man liebt und die einem am nächsten ist, genau DESHALB, sorgt dafür, daß wir uns wie ein Monster fühlen.
Inzwischen zähle ich schon 5 Freunde, die allein in 2018 versucht haben, sich zu töten.
Ich hoffe, hier hört es auf. Und ich hoffe, all ihre Nächsten waren und sind stark genug, um dem Maelstrom zu entkommen. Es ist fast unmöglich, ich weiß, wenn Dir jemand wichtig ist. Darum habe ich das hier geschrieben.
Bleibt stark. Bleibt strahlend, in diesen dunkelsten Stunden des Jahres.  (Ich glaube, Ihr lebt alle derzeit auf der Nordhalbkugel…?) Der Frühling wird kommen. 
 
 
CASTLE IN THE WOODS 
In a land far away there´s a mountainside  where no one will go
In the mountains far away there´s a peak  covered in eternal snow
If you climb up this mountain – which you never ever will –
you may find me
I can show you the way if you really wanna follow deep inside of me
On the mountain in the woods there´s a castle looming against the dusky sky
You may walk all the road to the castle but it´s broken and dangerously high
If you walk all this road which you never ever will you may find me
I can show you the way if you really wanna follow deep inside of me
If you reach the castle you will find that the walls are too steep to climb
And the doorway is blocked by a gate which seems forged by a titan´s child
If you still find the key which you never ever will you may find me
I can show you the way if you really wanna follow deep inside of me
So now you´re inside but it´s dark as pitch not a spark of light
You can light all the candles you can find but you still  will feel left to die
If you don´t run away – which you probably will – you may find me
I can show you the way if you really wanna follow deep inside of me  
In the castle on the mountain in the deep deep wood there´s a turret
You may find the door to the endless narrow staircase in the deepest vault
If you climb all the stairs which you never ever will you may find me
I can show you the way if you really wanna follow deep inside of me
On the top of the stairs there´s a room with a burnt out fireplace
In the ashes you can see shreds of paper burnt and ripped to kill every trace
If you put them all together which you never ever will you may find me
I can show you the way if you really wanna follow deep inside of me
There´s a letter now before you; try to read it, all the answers you may want are here
While you´re reading you won´t notice how the door is locked and a step comes near
When you look up from the letter – crying if you understand – you may see me
I am standing at the window. With a sad and sorry smile I throw out the key
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